The Turning Point

Wow !!!! I can honestly say that the turning point in my life was when my daughter was 6 months old ( above pictures she’s 1 month and 1/2 lol). A few months earlier I decided that I wanted to try to do the whole “family” thing with my daughter’s father. In the mist of that decision he told me that another woman was “saying” that she was pregnant with his child. He told me that there was a 99% chance that it wasn’t his child. Which played a big part on why I decided to proceed forward even though my gut feeling was telling me not to.

Side note:

You ever have a gut feeling about something and choose not to go with the better choice of judgement based upon someone else’s actions or words ? I definitely have been guilty of this.

The good thing about that is God has a way of working everything about our story into His Story!

I remember the day that the woman went to the hospital like it was yesterday. I was scared, nervous, confused, heartbroken, and supportive all in one nutshell. Then I went into work sat at my desk and received a phone call from my cousin. This call was not good at all. It added flame to the fire that was already brewing inside of me it added to my uncertainty.

I was conflicted, I was angry, I was hurt, I felt like a fool to keep holding on to hope for a person who wouldn’t even be honest and upfront. There I was staring at my computer screen but not really. With tears streaming down my face. I didn’t know that that phone call would be the one that would lead me in the arms of my Heavenly Father (I mean not right away but through a process).

I remember telling my mother, I need to go to church. It’s funny when I watch my words come back to bit me on the but. The Bible tells us “life and death is in the tongue and those who love to talk will eat on it” (paraphrasing) well y’all I was eatting my words because the very church I said wasn’t for me at 16 years old was the very church that feed my spirit and grew me up at the age of 23.

God came for me when I felt like I couldn’t trust no one. Jesus came to walk me though what healing actually is, it hasn’t been easy. But it was though one of my darkest times that I learned to trust in Him, allowing Him to take the lead.

I also realize that my daughter and her brother was a driving force to get me to my predestined place. I call them hidden blessings.

If there is anything that is happening in your life or has happened that you felt has turned your life around in any way? I would love to hear about it. Until next time.

Be Sweet 🍯