Written August 2018
It’s always amazes me how the season change and new situations come sweeping in.
Currently I’ve been having mixed emotions about this season I’m in now.
Even though there’s a lot to be joyful for like one of my best friend is getting married in October and she asked me to be her maid of honor, my daughters father is home for incarceration so I have a little more free time on my hands, I’m growing a little everyday in each of my relationships whether it’s a growth from understanding and acting on something positive or seeing something negative and learning how to walk through it.
Even with the growth though I still feel unfulfilled, I still feel like there is something missing from my life and I’m having trouble finding it. I’m having trouble sitting still and trusting God to lead and guide my footsteps. I mean I guess we all get into these slumps right?
How do we smile with our friends when great things are happening in there lives and ours seem to be standing still and not moving? How do we truly be happy with ourself when it seems like we have nothing to be happy about?
Let’s be honest here, I realize that my discontentment has nothing to do with anyone else but everything to do with me. How I view things, how I manuever through difficult and happy times. Change can sometimes be one of the hardest but needed things in our life.
One that I’m going to continue to do is be hopefully about change. I’m praying the same for you!