#ThisisPatience

“My little one”

I want to share a funny but true story with y’all. Almoust 3 weeks ago I started moving my daughter into a separate room, her very own room. She was staying with her father for the weekend so I wanted to surprise her and have her room finished before she came home on Sunday.

Her room was freshly painted and her floors were done over. But she was missing the essentials. The bed, nightstand, dresser, tv stand, and a few other items. The week before I had scouted out what I wanted to buy her on Amazon and because I use prime I mapped out how all the products would get here at a specific time so that I can get it done in ample time. So the following Wednesday and Thursday I begin to order the stuff, everything was set to arrive between Friday and Saturday.

How many of us understand that God’s timing isn’t like our timing.

I went by the mattress store and set up the delivery. I mean when I tell y’all I was so hype because my plan was in motion and I was excited.

One of the most important pieces. The bedframe was set to arrive on Friday, and some of the smaller items were set to arrive on Saturday.

I couldn’t wait to get to work when I came home from my job on Friday. Not only because I knew Pey would be happy but also because I knew it was time for the much needed space and discipline for us both.

When I got home the box with the smaller items had arrived. Nightstand check, led lights check, new remote check. It was only 5pm so I checked Amazon to see what was going on with the Bed frame.. It said it would be delivered by 9pm. So I said okay!! Let me get to work on this revamp of Pey’s room so when the frame was delivered I could finally have the finishing piece.

I started working with the help of my neice and nephew by the time I looked up it was almost 9 pm. I went on the porch… NO PACKAGE. I checked Amazon and there was a note “customer has to pick up package.” My mind was boggled I was a little upset because I wanted to get the frame up so that when the bed was delivered it would be all set.

I stop and I looked to see where the frame was being delivered to, it said the post office and because I didn’t know how big it was I called my mom and asked her could she bring me to get it when she came down. She said she would be down at 12:30 pm.

The next morning my mother woke me up at 8 am to open the door for the landscaper, because I couldn’t go back to sleep I said to myself let me go get gas and to the atm to get the cash out for the bed when he comes between 11-1 pm. By the time I finished all my errands it was close to 10:30 so I said to myself you can go to the beach to spend time with God. But then it dawned on me I didn’t know which post office the frame was at and also that it was Saturday and the post office closed early.

I started to panic yall, like I was literally panicking because little by little my plan was crumbling in my face. I called Amazon they told me to call the postal service, so I did and they said the package was at the post office near my house. I called my mom and told her I was on my way there to check. She told me give her call and let her know before she left her house. Once I got there I spoke to Charlie I gave him all the information and he said the items hadn’t gotten there yet. That he saw them the night before downtown but they weren’t marked and he wasn’t sure if my post woman would take them because they were heavy. He told me to go downtown and give them the message he gave me. If they weren’t there I would most likely have to get them Monday.

By then I was very frustrated but not ready to throw in the towel when I got in the car I said “God you are really about to take me on a journey for this bedframe…. Here we go.”

I called my mom relayed the message and drove downtown. When I got there the woman said she didn’t see the boxes, my mail woman must have took them and I would have to get them Monday if she doesn’t drop them off. If y’all could only image I was devastated! I felt defeated. I had planned it out so well but it wasn’t working out. I called my mom told her she didn’t have to come because I would most likely have to just pick them up monday and finish Peys room then. My mom said okay, then she said just look out for the mail if the lady has it ask the landscaper to help you bring it in. I told her okay.

I got back home around 11:30 the landscaper hadn’t come yet and I was still waiting for a call from the man with the bed too. I relaxed and read my Bible. Then I started to watch a movie… Before I knew it, it was almost hitting 3pm. No call from the bed delivery, the landscaper still hadn’t shown up (he was suppose to be there at 9am). Everything was running off schedule but I was cool. I just relaxed, there wasn’t really nothing I could do lol.

How many of us know Gods timing is not ours and He has no problem humbling us and recking our plan to show us who is in charge.

Around 4 pm I got a call from the mattress man he said he would be coming around 5 pm. My Spirit unctioned me to get up and check and see if the landscaper came and soon as I opened the door he was right there cutting the grass. He asked me to plug in another cord so I did and I headed toward the front to throw some trash out and GUESS WHAT! When I opened the door the bedframe was right there on the porch. I was beyond happy!

I wasn’t even going to check for it. I went outside for a totally different reason and I had wrote it off in my mind I was okay by then with it coming Monday. I knew I did my best to get everything there but there was nothing else I could do. So could you imagine my excitement.

Not even 30 minutes after the mattress man called and said he was outside.

It reminded me of this verse “Yes indeed, it won’t be long now.” GOD ’s Decree. “Things are going to happen so fast your head will swim, one thing fast on the heels of the other. You won’t be able to keep up. Everything will be happening at once—and everywhere you look, blessings! Blessings like wine pouring off the mountains and hills.” Amos 9:13-14 (the message)

Things may not had happened how I planned, and everything looked late in my sight but they weren’t late in God’s. He was working behind the scenes and I believe He did it just to show me that I wasn’t really in control. That even with a little delay things would still happen in His perfect timing as they were happening with Peyton’s room.

And I was tickled literally giggling to myself about the lesson and blessing that He had just poured on me. Through experience.

What is happening in your life that looks delayed? What looks like it’s not showing up on time because of what “someone” (in my case Amazon and the postal ppl in there knowledge told me). I dare you to relax and let God take the wheel. Pey’s room was done Saturday night and ready for her when she came home Sunday morning. And GUESS WHAT! Your promise will be just like that too…. just trust God with the process. Day by day I’m learning too!

Be Sweet 🍯

#THISIS30

Seraphina Restaurant San Juan, PR

I turned THIRTY on September 2nd and unlike a lot of ppl I know I was actually excited leading up to it. 30 is a milestone. For me the months leading up to it felt like I had to make a very important decision. To be transparent it was about my walk with Christ.

Was I going to continue to waver too and fro. Was I going to going to continue to do my own thing? Was I going to continue to settle for the same cycles that seemed like a broken record each time I thought or talked about it.

I pondered… I wandered …. I was scared

Scared of what Nytavia? you may say… I was scared of both the possibility of being the same, not changing this next decade of my life because sure I felt like I wasted my 20s away chasing everything but God with all my heart. And scared of the endless possibilities of living up to the greatness that God put inside of me.

I was at a crossroads… to serve the Almighty God with all my heart, all my mind, and all my soul and step into the UNKNOWN BY FAITH… or continue to walk in what I know comfortable with brokenness, sadness, and disappointment, shame, guilt, and unforgiveness.

I spent months with these questions in my mind and heart but on JUNE 19th something happened. See one way the God speaks to me is through license plates. I was on my way to my cousins gender reveal with a friend and my daughter and as we drove we came to a stop sign. There was a car in front of us and when I looked down the plate said YES! I knew God was speaking to me so I speaking to Him lol yes God I’ll do whatever you need me to do. It’s rough out here. I said in my heart. Then we drove up probably about another mile or so and the car was still in front of us. I couldn’t get my eyes off it. As we pulled up to the red light there was a big truck,the car with the license plate that said YES pulled up to. The license plate on the big truck said 2 MONTHS. I was floored.

Right there JESUS was speaking. I had a decision to make and because of how things where going for me the decision wasn’t hard. I said in my heart, “God I have been chasing these men for 2 months straight, the same chase I gave them I’ma commit to you”!

I decided to give God a fresh YES. I wanted to walk in to 30 free. Which meant I had to let go of every sin and weight that so easily beseech me.

I started to take steps some big some small. Did I get free from it all before Sept 2nd ? No but with the leading of Holy Spirit my comforter. Step by step I started knocking things down and I decided to get back up. Not in my own strength but in God’s. Knowing that if I continue to delight myself in Him, my desires will be shaped by His for me.

Has it been easy ? NOOOOOOO there are people, places, and things that I love that for a season, or/and a time, and/or forever have to let go off in order to walk in the purpose that God has for me.

You remember when Jesus was in the garden of Gesthenme right before thr soldiers where coming for Him. He cried out to the Father for Him to take His cup away but then in the next sentence He said, “not My will but YOURS”. (Paraphrased)

#THISIS30 Not my will but HIS !!!!

Birthday Blessings 🎉

Are you going through a season of seeking and searching for any and everything but God… I challenge you to put that same amount of time into seeking Him and watch how your life changes!!!

Be Sweet 🍯

A SUDDEN Change

Wow! We have made it into the New Year… we are 25 days in and to me it has felt like a sudden change has occurred mainly with my mindset. So the last few weeks it’s been impressed on me to get my finances in order. For one reason or another I haven’t been the best steward of what God has given me in that area. But I’m learning the meaning and life lesson behind, “if you are faithful with a few, I will make you ruler over much.”

A few weeks back as I was driving God was showing me how our Spiritual Growth and how we handle finances are directly link to each other. One without the other causes all other areas to be off balance.

I want you to close your eyes and imagine you, with no money, deep down in debt, drowning. Then imagine how you would feel spiritual? Would you feel like praying or fasting? (Which if this is your story you should still pray and fast) but your answer is probably no, Why? Well because worried, doubt, and fear of not having enough would probably be your potion over faith.

I know what your maybe thinking …Hummmm Nytavia, this is a interesting concept. I know why because this is the question that I had to answer for myself.

See the Bible says that the borrower is slave to the lender, it also says that faith without works is dead and if you don’t work you don’t eat.

So in order to exercise my faith I had to get up and make a change and a commitment to get out of debt by any means necessary.

A SUDDEN CHANGE in mindset had occurred in me. It’s like a lightbulb went off. “PIVOT” It’s time to change course and turn this thing around knowing that if I live like no one else now then I can live and give like no one else later (Dave Ramsey Quote)

What is the SUDDEN change that has happened in your life in the past 19 days? I would love to hear!

Be Sweet 🍯

The Turn Around

Repentance

Right now I’m at a place were I know that true repentance is needed for me to fully walk in the destiny that awaits me.

There needs to be firm action behind the words. I mean isn’t that what REPENT means anyways.

In the Bible we see alot of people, who were chosen by God to declare to different nations to REPENT. To turn away from there sins and turn to God. This is important because without truly repenting our prayers can be held up.

It’s like God is saying, “all I want you to do is STOP ✋🏽 , think 🤔, and make a decision, a precise one.” And if we just stop for a second, quiet our mind and listen. Then we can see that His ways are different then ours and most of the stuff that we are doing is bringing us in circles anyways.

HE HAS A PLAN… HE ALWAYS DOES.

But it’s up to you and I to either accept that plan or reject it.

To be fully transparent with y’all for the last few months I’ve been rejecting the plans of God for my life out of fear. When fear creeps in it’s my natural inclination to fold under pressure. THANK GOD FOR HIS PRAYER WARRIORS. Who stayed two steps ahead of me watching not only my front but my back to make sure that even if I fall. In the spiritual realm that God will help me right back up.

I’ve seen a miracle happen right before my own eyes within myself. But even with that I had to repent (turn away from my sin and walk towards God). Not with emotion or with feelings but with faith. When the battle gets tough like Jehoshaphat (2 Chronicles 20) when I see my enemies coming I’ll run to God in fasting and prayer and not away from it.

THERE’S ALWAYS A TURNING AROUND!

Be in Expectation, Be Sweet 🍯

#DECEMBERTOREMEMBER

The Unexpectant

You ever had something happen to you that just totally blow you away?

That was me on my birthday this year.

Picture this.

I was grocery shopping two days before my birthday because I wanted to make some extra money to take care of my trip to Niagara Falls. But a few days early I was feeling an unction in my spirit to just sit down and relax. I kept feeling like everything was going to be taking care of but yet I was still so anxious and wanted to make sure.

So that Monday I took a few orders delivered them and decided I had to go get my glasses (because I had left them at my previous job the week before). It was convenient for me to pick them up and have my meeting outside in the parking lot since I was already parked.

After I finished I went to start the car up and guess what happen y’all ? IT WOULDN’T START! I was like okay this happened last week so let me go purchase jumper cables and then it’ll be good. That’s exactly what I did and the car wouldn’t start. I called my mechanic and he picked up my car that night. The thing that I didn’t want to do which was sit down and be still God force me too.

My friend (Shanti- Peace) had told me about this sermon that was preached at her church in July. Which was based out of Psalm 23 (go read). She told me that sometimes when the sheep go astray the Shepherd would have to break the sheep’s feet and carry the sheep so that the sheep would get out of harms way. Of course the sheep’s feet would heal and it’ll be right back where it belonged with the other sheep.

🍯 & ✌🏽

That’s exactly what happen to me. God BROKE MY FEET! I wasn’t listening to the still small voice that told me just to relax. I was so worried that I wouldn’t have enough to pay for my trip. That God LITERALLY stop me from going out.

I stayed in the house for two days.

On my birthday I was ready, and refreshed. Shant was taking me out to brunch and I love some good food so I couldn’t wait. We were talking and out of nowhere the UNEXPECTANT happened.

My cashapp started to ding over and over and over and over again. I literally COULD NOT BELIEVE IT. I started to explain to Shant what was going on and started to cry. Like that ugly cry because God had once again came through and I truly wasn’t looking for it. I was trusting Him hoping that somehow it’ll all work out but I had my doubts. And y’all He gave me enough to get my car fixed, pay for my trip, and have spending money.

I was overwhelmed and grateful. It has caused my faith to go up another notch.

So if their is something that you don’t have and your waiting on God to provide just wait. In His timing He always provides. He did it for Abraham He will do it for you too!

Those UNEXPECTED blessing are worthwhile!

Be Sweet 🍯

The Instructions

You ever try to put something together just to find out that you put one of the pieces in the wrong place lol. You sit an think dang I should have just read the instructions.

A few weeks back me and my bestfriend Ky were in her guest room and she was trying to put this fan together that she just brought because I was staying over and she wanted to make sure that I wasn’t hot. So she’s putting the pieces in one by one and then she comes to a halt. Looking real puzzled. I said, “Ky, did you read the instructions?” She said, “no”.

I pick up the instruction and start to read them. In less than 5 minutes we put the rest of the fan together and we were good to go!

God is a BEAST when it comes to giving instructions. He’s like the ultimate mastermind when it comes to the knowing what each of us need to do for our life to be lived to the fullest.

But we have a choice either we can following what He tells us to do or we can do what we want.

Trust God is not going to force you to do what HE knows is right for your life.

So let’s look at the meaning of instructions.

Google.com describes the word to mean:

1. a direction or order

2. Detailed information to tell how something should be done, operated, or assembled.

Ummmm so, in the Bible we see God doing this a few different ways. With Abraham he give him part of the directions pertaining to moving away from his family to help build his faith. For Noah He gave him the full directions on how to build the boat because Noah already had CRAZY FAITH to build the ark in the middle of the desert. See Noah didn’t really need a boast.

God showed him piece by peice in detail so that when the rain did come Noah, his family, and the animals wouldn’t have a issue.

How is God dealing with you at this present time?

For me like Abraham He is giving me most of my instructions step by step to build my faith back up. See I want to get the place were Noah was were without a doubt I’m building it doesn’t matter if I see or not.

I understand more than ever how important is to follow the “detail information as to how something should be done” in my life.

Do you have a better understand for yours? And if you don’t consult the Creator of the universe and remember He created you to!

Be Sweet 🍯

The Gift

When is the last time you received a gift?

Hummmmmmm, what pops in your mind when you think about a gift?

Do you think of money, a car, a vacation, do you think of materialistic things or small sentiments.

What crosses your mind when you think about the word?

Last night Shanti (my bestie) and I were talking about how we can have something in our possession but totally miss out by not getting the full use or have an understanding on how to utilize it.

As we were talking she said God gave “‘me this as a gift”. I said now ain’t that a word? We started cracking up because surely it is.

So back to the first question. God just gave you a gift.

What is a gift? (It could be a person, materials, or whatever you perceive as a gift)

How sentimental is the gift to you?

What did you do the show your appreciation for that gift?

I know for myself I’ve fumbled the ball in the area of really noticing that something is a gift. That it was my time to do the in wrapping. How about the gift of having my mom in my life. My mom believed in many times where I didn’t believe in myself.

The Word says that if we give good gifts to our children, just imagine how much better how much better are the gifts from me (paraphrasing)

God not only care about of outer but He is concern about the inner more part to. And as a child of the kings of Kings I can’t imagine what mines will be.

God is faithful to see the things he speaks about truth.

Know your gifts, understand your gifts, and push to succeed in that gift.

Be sweet 🍯

The Push

I’m in a very peculiar place in my life we’re I’m being challenged to step outside of my regulars into a uncomfortable and unfamiliar place.

I call it the PUSH.

Why because like a mother birthing out there child it’s uncomfortable but necessary for the baby to make it out of his/her mothers womb breathing and ready to explore this new life.

About a month ago I was fasting and had been literally bugging God asking Him what time did He want me to spend time with Him. Y’all I was shocked when he finally answered me.

So my cousin and I were driving to one of our friends mother funeral and a car cut in front of us on the highway. As I glanced at the license plate it said “5AM”. My eyes became really big and I starting talking to myself inside my heart. I said, “God you are funny, 5AM wow that is really early and something I’m not use to but I’m going to be obedient.”

Let me tell y’all about the challenge though. I am a night owl and can literally be up all . all night and sleep until noon. So you see how this has been growing, stretching, and PUSHING ME outside of my norms.

Most days have been easier than other. Especially when I set my mind of those things above and not beneath. When I think about spending time with my Daddy (Heavenly Father) I get a joy out of getting up and doing what He say.

God will PUSH you to become the version of yourself that He intended to be if you listen. Yes the God of Jacob, Issac, and Abraham. He speaks its up to us to hear Him and obey especially to the PUSH in your life.

The PUSH is helping me to be discipline even if I don’t see the results right away.

So ask yourself this. What is PUSHING me in this present time to improve in my everyday life?

Allow God to plant you now so you can sprout up in a way later that they know that you are connected to Him. That’s what I’m doing !

Be Sweet 🍯

The Stillness

Still?

What does it mean to be still? I would say that my definition of being still is sitting in a quiet place not doing anything, Literally. Even as I’m writing this post I’m picturing myself watching Peyton sitting in a chair and wigging around while eating and me saying to her, “Pey be still”.

It isn’t easy to be still when we live in a society that promotes fast pace lifestyle with EVERYTHING. If I’m not in the mood to cook I can either pick up some fast food or have a Uber to bring it, if I don’t feel like waiting for my favorite show to air every week I can just catch it on demand, I can pick up the phone and reach someone in a drop of a dime because of the fast pace we are going in.

But y’all what happens when God tells you to BE STILL? Let me be a little transparent. For the last 25 days I’ve been having skin-to-skin time with God. My big cousin Tiphani Montgomery (if you don’t know her look her up) taught us about the importance of Skin-to-Skin time with God.

What is Skin-to- Skin you say?

Think about what happens when a baby is born the doctors lays the baby on his/her mommas chest. The experience is amazing, the baby rest, it can’t talk , it’s can’t sing, just pure stillness, bonding and rest.

Like in the natural in the spiritual there are benefits to skin-to-skin like reduce crying, stabilized heart, breathing, and tempature of the baby and some long term effects are maternal attachment and transfer of good bacteria.

Tell me that isn’t amazing !

Being STILL in God eyes requires for us to put our trust in Him and what He doing in our lives at all times. Without even realizing it sometimes we are moving so fast and doing so much that we don’t even understand that we need skin-to-skin with our Heavenly Father to regulate us, so we can bond with him, so we can hear, so we can rest, and so we can get some good bacteria from Him.

It’s critical in this time to take a moment to BE STILL and remember your responsibilities will always be there.

I challenge each of you to spend 60 minutes of uninterrupted time laying on your Creator, your Father chest. Watch how your life begins to change little by little.

Be Sweet 🍯

The Change

Written August 2018

It’s always amazes me how the season change and new situations come sweeping in.

Currently I’ve been having mixed emotions about this season I’m in now.

Even though there’s a lot to be joyful for like one of my best friend is getting married in October and she asked me to be her maid of honor, my daughters father is home for incarceration so I have a little more free time on my hands, I’m growing a little everyday in each of my relationships whether it’s a growth from understanding and acting on something positive or seeing something negative and learning how to walk through it.

Even with the growth though I still feel unfulfilled, I still feel like there is something missing from my life and I’m having trouble finding it. I’m having trouble sitting still and trusting God to lead and guide my footsteps. I mean I guess we all get into these slumps right?

How do we smile with our friends when great things are happening in there lives and ours seem to be standing still and not moving? How do we truly be happy with ourself when it seems like we have nothing to be happy about?

Let’s be honest here, I realize that my discontentment has nothing to do with anyone else but everything to do with me. How I view things, how I manuever through difficult and happy times. Change can sometimes be one of the hardest but needed things in our life.

One that I’m going to continue to do is be hopefully about change. I’m praying the same for you!

Be Sweet🍯