#ThisisPatience

“My little one”

I want to share a funny but true story with y’all. Almoust 3 weeks ago I started moving my daughter into a separate room, her very own room. She was staying with her father for the weekend so I wanted to surprise her and have her room finished before she came home on Sunday.

Her room was freshly painted and her floors were done over. But she was missing the essentials. The bed, nightstand, dresser, tv stand, and a few other items. The week before I had scouted out what I wanted to buy her on Amazon and because I use prime I mapped out how all the products would get here at a specific time so that I can get it done in ample time. So the following Wednesday and Thursday I begin to order the stuff, everything was set to arrive between Friday and Saturday.

How many of us understand that God’s timing isn’t like our timing.

I went by the mattress store and set up the delivery. I mean when I tell y’all I was so hype because my plan was in motion and I was excited.

One of the most important pieces. The bedframe was set to arrive on Friday, and some of the smaller items were set to arrive on Saturday.

I couldn’t wait to get to work when I came home from my job on Friday. Not only because I knew Pey would be happy but also because I knew it was time for the much needed space and discipline for us both.

When I got home the box with the smaller items had arrived. Nightstand check, led lights check, new remote check. It was only 5pm so I checked Amazon to see what was going on with the Bed frame.. It said it would be delivered by 9pm. So I said okay!! Let me get to work on this revamp of Pey’s room so when the frame was delivered I could finally have the finishing piece.

I started working with the help of my neice and nephew by the time I looked up it was almost 9 pm. I went on the porch… NO PACKAGE. I checked Amazon and there was a note “customer has to pick up package.” My mind was boggled I was a little upset because I wanted to get the frame up so that when the bed was delivered it would be all set.

I stop and I looked to see where the frame was being delivered to, it said the post office and because I didn’t know how big it was I called my mom and asked her could she bring me to get it when she came down. She said she would be down at 12:30 pm.

The next morning my mother woke me up at 8 am to open the door for the landscaper, because I couldn’t go back to sleep I said to myself let me go get gas and to the atm to get the cash out for the bed when he comes between 11-1 pm. By the time I finished all my errands it was close to 10:30 so I said to myself you can go to the beach to spend time with God. But then it dawned on me I didn’t know which post office the frame was at and also that it was Saturday and the post office closed early.

I started to panic yall, like I was literally panicking because little by little my plan was crumbling in my face. I called Amazon they told me to call the postal service, so I did and they said the package was at the post office near my house. I called my mom and told her I was on my way there to check. She told me give her call and let her know before she left her house. Once I got there I spoke to Charlie I gave him all the information and he said the items hadn’t gotten there yet. That he saw them the night before downtown but they weren’t marked and he wasn’t sure if my post woman would take them because they were heavy. He told me to go downtown and give them the message he gave me. If they weren’t there I would most likely have to get them Monday.

By then I was very frustrated but not ready to throw in the towel when I got in the car I said “God you are really about to take me on a journey for this bedframe…. Here we go.”

I called my mom relayed the message and drove downtown. When I got there the woman said she didn’t see the boxes, my mail woman must have took them and I would have to get them Monday if she doesn’t drop them off. If y’all could only image I was devastated! I felt defeated. I had planned it out so well but it wasn’t working out. I called my mom told her she didn’t have to come because I would most likely have to just pick them up monday and finish Peys room then. My mom said okay, then she said just look out for the mail if the lady has it ask the landscaper to help you bring it in. I told her okay.

I got back home around 11:30 the landscaper hadn’t come yet and I was still waiting for a call from the man with the bed too. I relaxed and read my Bible. Then I started to watch a movie… Before I knew it, it was almost hitting 3pm. No call from the bed delivery, the landscaper still hadn’t shown up (he was suppose to be there at 9am). Everything was running off schedule but I was cool. I just relaxed, there wasn’t really nothing I could do lol.

How many of us know Gods timing is not ours and He has no problem humbling us and recking our plan to show us who is in charge.

Around 4 pm I got a call from the mattress man he said he would be coming around 5 pm. My Spirit unctioned me to get up and check and see if the landscaper came and soon as I opened the door he was right there cutting the grass. He asked me to plug in another cord so I did and I headed toward the front to throw some trash out and GUESS WHAT! When I opened the door the bedframe was right there on the porch. I was beyond happy!

I wasn’t even going to check for it. I went outside for a totally different reason and I had wrote it off in my mind I was okay by then with it coming Monday. I knew I did my best to get everything there but there was nothing else I could do. So could you imagine my excitement.

Not even 30 minutes after the mattress man called and said he was outside.

It reminded me of this verse “Yes indeed, it won’t be long now.” GOD ’s Decree. “Things are going to happen so fast your head will swim, one thing fast on the heels of the other. You won’t be able to keep up. Everything will be happening at once—and everywhere you look, blessings! Blessings like wine pouring off the mountains and hills.” Amos 9:13-14 (the message)

Things may not had happened how I planned, and everything looked late in my sight but they weren’t late in God’s. He was working behind the scenes and I believe He did it just to show me that I wasn’t really in control. That even with a little delay things would still happen in His perfect timing as they were happening with Peyton’s room.

And I was tickled literally giggling to myself about the lesson and blessing that He had just poured on me. Through experience.

What is happening in your life that looks delayed? What looks like it’s not showing up on time because of what “someone” (in my case Amazon and the postal ppl in there knowledge told me). I dare you to relax and let God take the wheel. Pey’s room was done Saturday night and ready for her when she came home Sunday morning. And GUESS WHAT! Your promise will be just like that too…. just trust God with the process. Day by day I’m learning too!

Be Sweet 🍯

#THISIS30

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I turned THIRTY on September 2nd and unlike a lot of ppl I know I was actually excited leading up to it. 30 is a milestone. For me the months leading up to it felt like I had to make a very important decision. To be transparent it was about my walk with Christ.

Was I going to continue to waver too and fro. Was I going to going to continue to do my own thing? Was I going to continue to settle for the same cycles that seemed like a broken record each time I thought or talked about it.

I pondered… I wandered …. I was scared

Scared of what Nytavia? you may say… I was scared of both the possibility of being the same, not changing this next decade of my life because sure I felt like I wasted my 20s away chasing everything but God with all my heart. And scared of the endless possibilities of living up to the greatness that God put inside of me.

I was at a crossroads… to serve the Almighty God with all my heart, all my mind, and all my soul and step into the UNKNOWN BY FAITH… or continue to walk in what I know comfortable with brokenness, sadness, and disappointment, shame, guilt, and unforgiveness.

I spent months with these questions in my mind and heart but on JUNE 19th something happened. See one way the God speaks to me is through license plates. I was on my way to my cousins gender reveal with a friend and my daughter and as we drove we came to a stop sign. There was a car in front of us and when I looked down the plate said YES! I knew God was speaking to me so I speaking to Him lol yes God I’ll do whatever you need me to do. It’s rough out here. I said in my heart. Then we drove up probably about another mile or so and the car was still in front of us. I couldn’t get my eyes off it. As we pulled up to the red light there was a big truck,the car with the license plate that said YES pulled up to. The license plate on the big truck said 2 MONTHS. I was floored.

Right there JESUS was speaking. I had a decision to make and because of how things where going for me the decision wasn’t hard. I said in my heart, “God I have been chasing these men for 2 months straight, the same chase I gave them I’ma commit to you”!

I decided to give God a fresh YES. I wanted to walk in to 30 free. Which meant I had to let go of every sin and weight that so easily beseech me.

I started to take steps some big some small. Did I get free from it all before Sept 2nd ? No but with the leading of Holy Spirit my comforter. Step by step I started knocking things down and I decided to get back up. Not in my own strength but in God’s. Knowing that if I continue to delight myself in Him, my desires will be shaped by His for me.

Has it been easy ? NOOOOOOO there are people, places, and things that I love that for a season, or/and a time, and/or forever have to let go off in order to walk in the purpose that God has for me.

You remember when Jesus was in the garden of Gesthenme right before thr soldiers where coming for Him. He cried out to the Father for Him to take His cup away but then in the next sentence He said, “not My will but YOURS”. (Paraphrased)

#THISIS30 Not my will but HIS !!!!

Birthday Blessings 🎉

Are you going through a season of seeking and searching for any and everything but God… I challenge you to put that same amount of time into seeking Him and watch how your life changes!!!

Be Sweet 🍯

A SUDDEN Change

Wow! We have made it into the New Year… we are 25 days in and to me it has felt like a sudden change has occurred mainly with my mindset. So the last few weeks it’s been impressed on me to get my finances in order. For one reason or another I haven’t been the best steward of what God has given me in that area. But I’m learning the meaning and life lesson behind, “if you are faithful with a few, I will make you ruler over much.”

A few weeks back as I was driving God was showing me how our Spiritual Growth and how we handle finances are directly link to each other. One without the other causes all other areas to be off balance.

I want you to close your eyes and imagine you, with no money, deep down in debt, drowning. Then imagine how you would feel spiritual? Would you feel like praying or fasting? (Which if this is your story you should still pray and fast) but your answer is probably no, Why? Well because worried, doubt, and fear of not having enough would probably be your potion over faith.

I know what your maybe thinking …Hummmm Nytavia, this is a interesting concept. I know why because this is the question that I had to answer for myself.

See the Bible says that the borrower is slave to the lender, it also says that faith without works is dead and if you don’t work you don’t eat.

So in order to exercise my faith I had to get up and make a change and a commitment to get out of debt by any means necessary.

A SUDDEN CHANGE in mindset had occurred in me. It’s like a lightbulb went off. “PIVOT” It’s time to change course and turn this thing around knowing that if I live like no one else now then I can live and give like no one else later (Dave Ramsey Quote)

What is the SUDDEN change that has happened in your life in the past 19 days? I would love to hear!

Be Sweet 🍯

The Stillness

Still?

What does it mean to be still? I would say that my definition of being still is sitting in a quiet place not doing anything, Literally. Even as I’m writing this post I’m picturing myself watching Peyton sitting in a chair and wigging around while eating and me saying to her, “Pey be still”.

It isn’t easy to be still when we live in a society that promotes fast pace lifestyle with EVERYTHING. If I’m not in the mood to cook I can either pick up some fast food or have a Uber to bring it, if I don’t feel like waiting for my favorite show to air every week I can just catch it on demand, I can pick up the phone and reach someone in a drop of a dime because of the fast pace we are going in.

But y’all what happens when God tells you to BE STILL? Let me be a little transparent. For the last 25 days I’ve been having skin-to-skin time with God. My big cousin Tiphani Montgomery (if you don’t know her look her up) taught us about the importance of Skin-to-Skin time with God.

What is Skin-to- Skin you say?

Think about what happens when a baby is born the doctors lays the baby on his/her mommas chest. The experience is amazing, the baby rest, it can’t talk , it’s can’t sing, just pure stillness, bonding and rest.

Like in the natural in the spiritual there are benefits to skin-to-skin like reduce crying, stabilized heart, breathing, and tempature of the baby and some long term effects are maternal attachment and transfer of good bacteria.

Tell me that isn’t amazing !

Being STILL in God eyes requires for us to put our trust in Him and what He doing in our lives at all times. Without even realizing it sometimes we are moving so fast and doing so much that we don’t even understand that we need skin-to-skin with our Heavenly Father to regulate us, so we can bond with him, so we can hear, so we can rest, and so we can get some good bacteria from Him.

It’s critical in this time to take a moment to BE STILL and remember your responsibilities will always be there.

I challenge each of you to spend 60 minutes of uninterrupted time laying on your Creator, your Father chest. Watch how your life begins to change little by little.

Be Sweet 🍯

The Prophecy

Prophecy? Some of you may be saying what is that? What is Honey talking about? Let’s take a look at what the word prophecy means:

According to dictionary.com the word prophecy means:

⁃ the foretelling or prediction of what is to come

⁃ Something that is declared by a prophet, especially a divinely inspired prediction, instruction, or exhortation

⁃ A divinely inspired utterance or revelation

What if I told you that everything you speak out of your mouth about yourself becomes a prophecy (prediction of what is to come). Whether good or bad the things which you speak will come into existence if not now then somewhere down the line.

Let me share a quick story with you all. If you have been reading my post from the beginning then you will be able to follow along with no problem.

I’m taking you’ll back to when I was pregnant with Pey. Thing we’re rocky between her father and I and we weren’t in a relationship when we conceived her. If you were anywhere in my close circle you would know that I constantly would say, “I’m going to be a single mom raising my daughter, we’re going to be okay my mom raised all 5 of us and she was single. When Peyton turns 9 months old my husband is going to show up we will get married and we’re going to raise her together. He’s going to be a great stepdad.”

Constantly with no thought these were my words as the months flew passed. Not knowing that I was prophesying over myself and Peyton. I was calling those things I could not see yet as if it was already there.

9 months after I gave birth to this beautiful baby girl.

What did you all think happened?

I was working at this hotel as a bartender and that night I was schedule to work a party and you’ll I did not want to work this party at all. I went around the whole kitchen and bar area to see if someone wanted to switch but no one would.

With a pout I went to my station. As I was working. BAM a familiar face walks through the door and we meet eyes. My heart starts racing as a smile breaks out on both of our faces. All I could hear in my spirit was “HUSBAND”. He came over to the bar and wouldn’t leave until I gave him my number. I would have never thought, not that night and not this person. It was well worth it.

I spoke him into existence without even knowing that my words were powerful. You’ll that’s how powerful our words are. The Bible tells us life and death are in the power of the tongue (paraphrasing). Your words can become a self proclaimed prophecy over your life and your children (if you have them). Be very careful of what your saying.

SIDENOTE: I know you’ll want to know what happen with me and “MR”. Lol I’ll save that for another time.

In the meantime let’s SPEAK life over ourselves together.

Be Sweet 🍯

The Seed

THE SEED! I know your thinking what is she talking about. I’m talking about mustard seed faith. You know the faith that Jesus said you would have if you just had a little bit of it (paraphrased). The faith that would be able to to move a mountain BELIEVED. That’s the kind of faith that is growing inside of me right now.

At this point in time I’m reading the book of 1 Samuel (GO READ) and the interesting story that opens up the book is a story about a woman name Hannah and her faith. See she was believing God for a child not one that was promised, nor owed to her but one that she desired and her belief, her SEED opened up the door for that child to be born.

Hannah had MUSTARD SEED FAITH!

That’s the kind of faith that I’m believing God for in this hour. There are things that I desire that I’m petitioning God for such as a closer and more intimate relationship with Him. I understand that only my prayers and obedience to His voice will open up the doors. I can’t let anyone and anything get in my way and I won’t.

Not even myself ! You see my journey looks a little different from others and I have to be okay with that. I use to find myself in positions where I’m hanging onto other people’s faith without developing none of my own.

The Bible says, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”

⁃ Hebrews 11:1 KJV

I didn’t have a problem believe God for you, but I struggled with believing Him for me. I was lacking in the area of faith.

If you study a mustard seed, you understand that it is very small, yes it’s starts there BUT it grows to be one of the biggest trees planted and it has very deep roots.

I’m now growing to understand that when God says something to me that I have to hang on to THE SEED praying, fasting, and seeking until I can see the very thing I’ve been praying for.

I’m praying that you will grow in your faith the same way!

Be Sweet 🍯

The Shift

I can’t deny the shift that has taken place in our world today. There’s anger, pain, fear, confusion, heartbreak and all kinds of other feeling because of George Floyd’s death. Can I be completely transparent with y’all. A few days after the murder of George. I was determined not to get engulfed into the situation. I wasn’t going to watch the video (I had already made up in my mind). I wasn’t going to read every post that was posted about the situation. I was going to stay as disconnected as I can simply so that I wouldn’t have to deal with the grief, the hurt, and the pain that comes with it all.

I was conflicted y’all! Between me needed to know and me not really wanting to. So on Friday after work my friend came and picked me up and we went to grab some food and ate in the car (because yes we’re still technically on restrictions due to covid19).

As we sat it the car I turned on the video and I watched it! My heart immediately BROKE like right there. It broke I couldn’t believe that the police the ones that suppose to be protecting us civilians allowed themselves to be so out of control that they killed another black man for NO apparent reason. I WAS SHOCKED. As this man called out for his mother, for water, for breath, they (four white officers) did nothing.

I couldn’t BELIEVE it!

Do we not matter to this society? This culture? This world?

I recognize with myself that I had shut off that area of my heart so that I wouldn’t get hurt by the many situations that have happened around the would. I had been out of touch with the reality of what’s been going on Amaud ? Breonna? Chris Cooper?

I didn’t know because I didn’t want to feel it … Also I’m not comfortable with jumping on the bandwagon of what’s trending (Black Lives Matter Movement). So I waited … watched… read… prayed …

The reality of being born black set in in my own home late last year when my daughter who goes to a predominantly white school said to me that she didn’t want to be chocolate anymore. Imagine teaching your daughter since she was born that being chocolate is beautiful and one day she comes home and tells you she doesn’t want to be it anymore.

Red flags went up immediately. She told me that two little girls in her class said her skin looked like doo doo. I was fuming, my 5 year old daughter had come face first with an act of racism. I wasn’t ready. How long have we been fighting this fight ?

Today people are protesting. For the lives of George Floyd and others whose lives have been taken away by the hands of injustice. Also for generations to come. Black lives do matters!

I stand with them!

RIP George Floyd

Praying for Peace, Change, and Unity.

How are you feeling during this time ?

Be SWEET 🍯