The Push

I’m in a very peculiar place in my life we’re I’m being challenged to step outside of my regulars into a uncomfortable and unfamiliar place.

I call it the PUSH.

Why because like a mother birthing out there child it’s uncomfortable but necessary for the baby to make it out of his/her mothers womb breathing and ready to explore this new life.

About a month ago I was fasting and had been literally bugging God asking Him what time did He want me to spend time with Him. Y’all I was shocked when he finally answered me.

So my cousin and I were driving to one of our friends mother funeral and a car cut in front of us on the highway. As I glanced at the license plate it said “5AM”. My eyes became really big and I starting talking to myself inside my heart. I said, “God you are funny, 5AM wow that is really early and something I’m not use to but I’m going to be obedient.”

Let me tell y’all about the challenge though. I am a night owl and can literally be up all . all night and sleep until noon. So you see how this has been growing, stretching, and PUSHING ME outside of my norms.

Most days have been easier than other. Especially when I set my mind of those things above and not beneath. When I think about spending time with my Daddy (Heavenly Father) I get a joy out of getting up and doing what He say.

God will PUSH you to become the version of yourself that He intended to be if you listen. Yes the God of Jacob, Issac, and Abraham. He speaks its up to us to hear Him and obey especially to the PUSH in your life.

The PUSH is helping me to be discipline even if I don’t see the results right away.

So ask yourself this. What is PUSHING me in this present time to improve in my everyday life?

Allow God to plant you now so you can sprout up in a way later that they know that you are connected to Him. That’s what I’m doing !

Be Sweet 🍯

The Change

Written August 2018

It’s always amazes me how the season change and new situations come sweeping in.

Currently I’ve been having mixed emotions about this season I’m in now.

Even though there’s a lot to be joyful for like one of my best friend is getting married in October and she asked me to be her maid of honor, my daughters father is home for incarceration so I have a little more free time on my hands, I’m growing a little everyday in each of my relationships whether it’s a growth from understanding and acting on something positive or seeing something negative and learning how to walk through it.

Even with the growth though I still feel unfulfilled, I still feel like there is something missing from my life and I’m having trouble finding it. I’m having trouble sitting still and trusting God to lead and guide my footsteps. I mean I guess we all get into these slumps right?

How do we smile with our friends when great things are happening in there lives and ours seem to be standing still and not moving? How do we truly be happy with ourself when it seems like we have nothing to be happy about?

Let’s be honest here, I realize that my discontentment has nothing to do with anyone else but everything to do with me. How I view things, how I manuever through difficult and happy times. Change can sometimes be one of the hardest but needed things in our life.

One that I’m going to continue to do is be hopefully about change. I’m praying the same for you!

Be Sweet🍯

The Positioning

Written December 5th, 2018

It’s funny how God will position us in the right place at the right time just to receive something that He set up since before we even existed. I laugh because there’s so many times that I look back on and I’m like God wow that was you you did that for me.

Me little ole me what did I do to deserve that. But God doesn’t look at me or you as little at all see He has a predestined plan for our life (Jer. 29:11) that He’s putting together just so that we can for one fufill the work that He has for us on this earth and also so that we can be full.

You might say full of what?

Full of life, full of joy, full of hope, full of purpose, full of passion and most importantly full of love.

See it’s something about being exactly where God put me that give me a sense of me being worth it and I now understand that it’s because I’m doing exactly what I’m suppose to be doing where I’m suppose to be doing it and whether some days are harder than others there is still a grace that He gives me and you to do it.

For instance, I recently went through a period where I felt like I was ready to leave my now current church (Kingdom Keys Ministry) well I did that in September and from 9/9 – 11/11 I went back to the church I attended before I joined KKM and the experience was amazing I began to get filled up in the areas we’re I felt drained but I didn’t have any direction.

So I prayed and prayed and asked God what should I do but I didn’t get an answer you guys I mean really God was silent. I recieved answers about other prays but not this particular one until 11/11.

Let me tell y’all I went into service that morning excited because Bishop Calhoun was in town and I just knew he would have a fire word from the Lord that would push me closer to my predestined place but something interesting having when I stepped into the sanctuary this feeling came over me. I WASNT SUPPOSE TO BE THERE ! I knew it in that moment. I couldn’t lift my hands to worship like I normally would. I just stood there listening and singing but in my heart I knew.

Before I actually took the steps to rejoin the ministry I prayed that God would show me before Dec. 1st and unexpectedly He did that day. When Bishop started preaching his message was centered around “being where your suppose to be to fulfill your destiny” I was taking aback and I knew I had to go back because if not I would miss something major that was about to happen in my life.

NOW I am back in position was it easy, no but I’m pretty sure it’s well worth it! So anyone of you who may be feeling out of place speak to God and ask him even if He doesn’t answer you right at that second he will answer.

So what did I do? I listened …

Stay Encouraged, Stay Expecting , Stay in Position !

Be Sweet 🍯